RAY 1

I

19/11/2024

TRAINING COMPLETE!

(ALMOST)

01/01/2025

In control

is the choice I make to experience in 2025, so that I may at last take my CHANCE!

02/01/2025

2025 I welcome you.

In the last few years you have grown significantly within my story.

2025

YOU ARE MOST WELCOME.

29.5 years earlier in the summer of 1995 an Insignificant moment took place. Through all my contemplation – and only recently – I have decided this moment triggered a spell of time leading to a far greater moment two years later.

27 long years passed in which I am conscious of the spiritual life and my fight for the light.

With all the help of Spirit in this time

I’ve been building towards a chance, and now at last, is the year in which I take it!

What did I learn in this long apprenticeship? I learnt all I want to be God, is your Son.

I have been shown the greatest gift that impossibly was forgotten and now remembered again.

To be your Son – this is ALL I want and ALL I AM.

03/01/2025

Holy Spirit, I wasn’t sure I was going to make it. I really wasn’t sure I was going to make it. But it is 2025 now and here I am with a plan and failure seems impossible!

I can feel my long apprenticeship coming to an end.

There are three important months this year: January, May and December.

We’re three days into January and I need something to happen.

To really succeed in May, and to celebrate in December, I NEED January to happen.

I need it to happen NOW.

I am 99% certain it HAS already happened and now I need to go and verify the result.

I have asked for many things many times on my journey and I have learnt a lot from doing this. To be honest, it’s been a total struggle on the material plane regarding things I’ve asked for. When I look back over this time, I would say I’ve received the minimal on the material plane.

Despite much conflict regarding not receiving the things I have wanted and seemed to need, I know there is a deeper plan at work.

You may well have regarded the things I seemed to need as just things I want instead.

Or perhaps it was to my greater benefit to receive less.

Or maybe I'm just crap at manifesting stuff.

But this time I am asking for the thing I need, and there is no doubt in my mind. You may argue, if indeed you even did argue, that this place I live in has made me stronger.

But I would argue, AND I DO INDEED ARGUE, that whilst you may be right,

IT HAS ALSO made me weaker.

It has been extremely challenging and every year it gets harder.

If I have to carry on, in this crucial year in this place, I may not have the strength in May to do what I intend to do.

And of course, if I don't turn all of this into planned, productive, realisable

ACTION,

then what was the point of any of it?

I said at the start of this entry in the first line: ‘failure seems impossible’, but without some help now – on the material plane – it may well be impossible

THIS TIME ROUND!

I do not want it to be NOT THIS LIFE!

I want it to be THIS LIFE!

I am going to go check now.

I am going to go check to see if I am a winner.

I have invested heavily into this particular idea because I NEED IT.

I will leave this entry/these words up on the website regardless of the outcome.

I will post all three entries just after 6pm tonight and then I will go and check the result.

I need a new home if I am going to succeed with this mission.

A new home = a completely different energy to this tiny little cage I live in.

A new home = a place of strength.

A new home = an upgrade to my focus.

A new home = being heard and provided for.

A new home = a chance to redeem myself.

A new home = an acknowledgement to continue upon this path.

A new home = so many good things, too numerous to mention.

A new home – on the material plane – is the thing I NEED.

Holy Spirit for the last time of asking

HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS PLACE!

I will not post again under this section (RAY 1) until January 29th

upon receiving the good news I crave.

04/02/2025

No. As in no more.

So much learning, all the time.

Today is arbitrary as regards posting upon this day,

except that I am continuing with the one thing I can hold steady to and that is my training.

Today I have forced myself online and here.

The most notable and really significant change that has taken place since previously posting is this:

I cannot continue with what I now see much clearer as the

6th Ray way.

I can't do it anymore.

In my learning I recall an idea called creating a different tendency.

A different tendency where?

A different tendency away from something which is now proving not to work.

Powerful positive feelings flare up, but afterwards there is fear and concern, and then conflict, and then – I can't really be bothered to say it – but apathy.

And after apathy — well, that bit's called

BULLSHIT!

YOU know what

Dearest God.

I can't be bothered with the bullshit.

I think it would be wise to reset my focus.

Something that has carried through now for quite a lot of years and I have come accustomed to working on is

My training.

It's always there of there abouts,

and I kind of trust it.

It keeps changing and developing all the time,

and that can be infuriating in it's own right.

But I think IT IS starting to stabilise.

WHAT IF

This powerful story on the 6th ray is on the way out?

Its function to be gradually getting less.

I'm tired.

I'm tired of this.

And what I am most tired of is

Nothing ever happening.

Through horrible darkness I chose a day called 'the end of my training' back in 2021.

19/11/2024

finally arrived.

It took forever.

And now that's OVER.

And NOW it's 2025.

But when does this shit END

When NOTHING EVER HAPPENS?

HOLY SPIRIT?

I've done my bit.

It must be that now I MUST CHOOSE

to move my focus onto something else.

For my continuation,

To get out of the mud and the weeds and the shit,

I must develop a tendency elsewhere.

So as to

LIVE MY LIFE.

And I know

I KNOW

The only way I can take my focus from this to something else

IS IF

I want something else MORE!!!!!!!

And therE is nothing else I want more

SAVE

To delay

THIS

And use this delay

This REST OF MY LIFE

To

Work at getting stronger, better, sharper, wiser

etc..

Wanting to be World Teacher

At this juncture in time is damaging to the flow of my Life, my mind and my being.

I must take my mind off of this with the only thing that really is going to work.

This STORY and this WEBSITE

Has really been an introduction to the

7 Rays

The value of that to me

Is not comprehensible to somebody else.

I HAVE EARNT THIS LEARNING.

And that IS ALL.

I now I get the reward of this learning,

which is the reward in it's own right.

NOT the subject material as a manifested worldly desire.

JUST the learning.

I let go of the powerful influence of this 6th Ray.

It's time for me to let this go and simply

Use my life to simply...

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